My Story.

I grew up in a good home, a mom, a dad and a half brother. My half brother is 14 years older than me, he left when I was 3 years old. He became an alcoholic, that I choose not to get close to. The last time I felt good about myself was when I was six years old. At age six, I was diagnosed w/ selective mutism and had to go to therapy to get over it. By second grade, I was talking to everyone and I was doing good. In 4th grade, my grandma, my best friend had passed away, and it all went downhill from there. I began to have a binge eating disorder, and at most I weighed 150 pounds. I was the biggest in my class. I began to get very low self esteem. I always felt like I didn't belong on this earth, but now it was becoming apparent. At age ten, I was diagnosed w/ anxiety and depression. I would miss 60 + days of school a year, because of the anxiety of school, that I had. At age eleven, I got diagnosed w/ OCD, which I wrote a sotry about on my other blog. When I was twelve, I began to get obsessed w/ calories and nutrition. I was eating healthy again, and went from 150 lbs, to 120 lbs, healthily. At age 13, It became obsessive, I would exercise for 2 hours a day and starve for days at a time. I had went from a healthy 120 lbs, to 105 lbs in a month's time. My goal was and is 80 lbs, as I have not yet recovered. My self injury started a few months after my eating disorder. I would cut, burn and beat myself up. I still have all of these problems, but the thing that I am most proud of, is that I overcame taking pills to get high & drinking, I haven't done that in over 6 months, & I am very happy about that. The oddity is.. I'm fourteen years old today.